huge mistakes, huge mistakes, mistakes that are huge.
but the question remains: have you ever loved me? the shadows of the past once again confront the present with a so very bitter future in promises that land out of my hand, which i wish, i just wish i could be able to reverse and be able myself to overpower and make the selfish decision alone. but i cannot control that.
huge mistakes, huge mistakes, mistakes that are huge.
can you not see the dark ages repeating themselves right now in front of our eyes? can you not see the silent details waving to us from those novels that become streaming shows that we all have been watching? how can you call me a friend after this same october?
huge mistakes, huge mistakes, mistakes that are huge.
but the question remains: did you just tolerate me? nonetheless i am tired, i have been so tired for a long time. i wish to hate you instead. but i am no monster, though i hope you understand all i see and have lived made me who i am today. you’re part of me. and for that i forgive you. that’s also my vote. my decision. my only choice right now, right here. what i can control right now. and for this i wish i could show how your october choices may change the future for us both, setting darkness just upon us unbiased when the world has gone insufferable. i am conscious that my options aren’t the best either, but at least we both maintain our right to live, and my existence is not compromised.
huge mistakes, huge mistakes, mistakes that are huge.
but the question remains: can you ever love me once? because i have tried talking to god already. except clearly, he doesn’t care. will there be love? or only this huge, cold ocean between us? i may have let the devil take over, yet it is god’s devil. he made a pig of you. this october is primal and my conscience is burning. i don’t really believe in god. in his sacred name the world becomes hell. in his shoes, divine shoes, if i may, i believe i would do a better job. instead, both of us were made believers in a saviour that has forgotten i need more than promises.
