and let me tell you something else: when i texted you, i had no intention to kiss you. i really just wanted a hug and a fresh start [for me].
for me that kiss was totally natural and without pretense [none]. but after the kiss i really thought we could try again.
it would be nice.
but, again, you didn’t get to choose us. and apparently chose wrong again.
[and] do you know what your biggest problem is?
you are part of that generation that you said they replace instead of fixing. we had decided to stay together, even after that ridiculous fight, even though you didn’t feel well, because i understood you and [all] the changes that were happening [in your life].
but you replaced us with that [someone else] one. and by the way, it didn’t even work, right?
another substitution [just for the record].
and another one will come, because you also don’t know what you want. always fluctuating in several things [all at the fucking same time]. between i want and i don’t want. between single life and having someone on your side. as long as you don’t decide and focus on what you really want, you won’t get much and everything will be fleeting and superficial. so i don’t think we’ll even work as friends.
even as friends. [and deep down i feel more than relieved].
about everything 