ache*.
definition.
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1.
unpleasant or painful sensation, of variable intensity, caused by an abnormal state of the organism or part of it and mediated by the stimulation of nerve fibers that take painful impulses to the brain; physical suffering.
2.
state of mind characterized by disappointment, disgust or disgrace; moral suffering; disappointment, dissatisfaction, gut.
3.
feeling of someone who regrets having made a mistake, a fault, harming oneself or others; regret, grief, remorse.
4.
feeling of regret about someone or oneself; commiseration, pity, pierty, mercy.
some things i learned over time. yeah. with time. i know it doesn’t look like. it may even be ironic to use time as a teacher for something, since i am not in my late twenties.
but yes. i learned some things with time, yes. in my early twenties, yes. one of them was to feel everything that needs to be felt. another thing i learned to feel was permission.
i allow myself everything. even say no to myself.
however, and most of the time, i always allow myself to feel all sorts of feelings and sensations, even if it hurts. because i read somewhere, a long time ago, before any story became fashionable, that some pains need to be felt.
making a correlation between things and using a clinical point of view, maybe my biggest pain is the permission i gave myself to feel everything i can feel without having an escape valve to support.
so i keep it to myself. only for me. i learned that too. few people are the ones who care. and in some cases, those who care, do not know how to listen, understand, respect.
and that’s why i keep it for myself. prefer. in the end, it hurts less. besides, i learned to overcome quickly. loves. friendships. disappointments. all.
yeah. even loves. because deep down loving is also a choice. therefore, to overcome a love, it is only necessary to start from the same premise. perhaps that makes me a selfish person. but i also learned, above all and everyone, to put myself in the first place [allowing me or not] because in the end it is me, regardless of the state [chaotic, normally].
about everything 